Today is a New Day

Today is a new day. Something which I try and tell myself every morning.

So for once, I think I shall make it happen.

No more complaints.
No more temper.
No more doubts and suspicions.
No more self depreciation.
No more losing myself.
No more cursing and swearing.
No more of the bastard that possessed my body in the last few months.

Today 6th December 2006, I exorcised my demons.

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Action Plan
1. Do not jump to conclusions
2. Do not doubt my loved ones
3. Do not ill treat my loved ones
4. Start exercising regularly
5. Accept all tasks at work with renewed passion and ask for help when necessary
6. Do not blow my top
7. Never let anyone make me think I'm not good enough
8. FIND MYSELF

THE ELITE WILL BE BACK SOON...

If at the end of it, nobody appreciates it or wants me anymore, just too bad.
If nobody wants to love me, I will love myself.
I did not survive so many dangerous stuff to lose myself over some silly relationship.

For once in more than a year, I'll do it for myself.

Screw the universe. :)

I AM TIRED

I'm tired of working so hard
I'm tired of not getting the recognition
I'm tired of feeling insecure
I'm tired of making myself angry
I'm tired of making Bebe upset
I'm tired of being unhappy
I'm tired of feeling lost
I'm tired of feeling tired

I need to find my way put soon.

I love you Bebe, much more than you'll ever know.

Good night.