Today is a new day. Something which I try and tell myself every morning.
So for once, I think I shall make it happen.
No more complaints.
No more temper.
No more doubts and suspicions.
No more self depreciation.
No more losing myself.
No more cursing and swearing.
No more of the bastard that possessed my body in the last few months.
Today 6th December 2006, I exorcised my demons.
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Action Plan
1. Do not jump to conclusions
2. Do not doubt my loved ones
3. Do not ill treat my loved ones
4. Start exercising regularly
5. Accept all tasks at work with renewed passion and ask for help when necessary
6. Do not blow my top
7. Never let anyone make me think I'm not good enough
8. FIND MYSELF
THE ELITE WILL BE BACK SOON...
If at the end of it, nobody appreciates it or wants me anymore, just too bad.
If nobody wants to love me, I will love myself.
I did not survive so many dangerous stuff to lose myself over some silly relationship.
For once in more than a year, I'll do it for myself.
Screw the universe. :)
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Monday, December 04, 2006
I AM TIRED
I'm tired of working so hard
I'm tired of not getting the recognition
I'm tired of feeling insecure
I'm tired of making myself angry
I'm tired of making Bebe upset
I'm tired of being unhappy
I'm tired of feeling lost
I'm tired of feeling tired
I need to find my way put soon.
I love you Bebe, much more than you'll ever know.
Good night.
I'm tired of not getting the recognition
I'm tired of feeling insecure
I'm tired of making myself angry
I'm tired of making Bebe upset
I'm tired of being unhappy
I'm tired of feeling lost
I'm tired of feeling tired
I need to find my way put soon.
I love you Bebe, much more than you'll ever know.
Good night.
Monday, November 27, 2006
What's wrong?
What's wrong with us?
I really wanna know.
Hopefully the answer will come soon cos I don't know how long I can deal with this constant rejection and aggression.
Life goes on for now.
Ryan and guys, don't bother calling me this few days k. I gotta get thru this myself, like how I got thru 2000. Thanks for being there boys. Sorry I haven't been as present as much as you've would have liked.
Going to work now.
I really wanna know.
Hopefully the answer will come soon cos I don't know how long I can deal with this constant rejection and aggression.
Life goes on for now.
Ryan and guys, don't bother calling me this few days k. I gotta get thru this myself, like how I got thru 2000. Thanks for being there boys. Sorry I haven't been as present as much as you've would have liked.
Going to work now.
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Another Day...
I FINALLY GOT TO THE GYM TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
After not going for months, it really felt good to be back... Months of neglect have really done my body in. Could't leg press more than 200lbs and couldn't shoulder press more than 100lbs...
Very bad...
Need to go more often from now on, no more excuses.
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Had some silly argument with Bebe this afternoon again. Let's just say the problem is resolved for now, gotta wait til this weekend is over before we'll know if there'll be more trouble. Hope not...
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6pm to 730pm. Happening!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Fireworks better than National Day.... I'm spent but I'l still game for lots more. Ironic...
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Haven't been able to sleep early the last few weeks. Promised Bebe I will try. So I shall try now.
Good night Bebe, I love you, much more than you'll ever know.
After not going for months, it really felt good to be back... Months of neglect have really done my body in. Could't leg press more than 200lbs and couldn't shoulder press more than 100lbs...
Very bad...
Need to go more often from now on, no more excuses.
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Had some silly argument with Bebe this afternoon again. Let's just say the problem is resolved for now, gotta wait til this weekend is over before we'll know if there'll be more trouble. Hope not...
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6pm to 730pm. Happening!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Fireworks better than National Day.... I'm spent but I'l still game for lots more. Ironic...
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Haven't been able to sleep early the last few weeks. Promised Bebe I will try. So I shall try now.
Good night Bebe, I love you, much more than you'll ever know.
Very tired
Don't know why I'm so tired but maybe it's a good thing if i can finally fall asleep early.
I love you Bebe and thank you for being so nice today.
I know I got a long way to go before being good enough.
I'll try my best k.
Good night. I'll write tomorrow(if I wake up early)...
I love you Bebe and thank you for being so nice today.
I know I got a long way to go before being good enough.
I'll try my best k.
Good night. I'll write tomorrow(if I wake up early)...
Sunday, November 19, 2006
Thoughts Before Bed
In the last 2 days alone, Bebe has gone for 2 things she really wasn't keen on, just cos I mentioned about going.
First was ktv. I realized last night that I can't really sing anymore and I'm not as enthusiastic anymore about singing. Bebe didn't have any mood to sing also. Spent half the night trying to find some song that one of the P.Superxxxx girls sang, to no avail. Well, Bebe just sat there trying to get through the night without falling asleep. Effectively from last night, I've lost 95% of going to ktv. I'm getting old...
This afternoon, we watched The Covenant. Looked exciting when I saw the trailer in Bangkok, but the actual movie turned out disappointing. You can't explore 5 families' history, add in teenage angst, a little love and a little subplot about spiders, all within 1.5 hours. Ended up looking like Street Fighter instead of some exciting goth show. And the scary part was not the "darklings" in the show. The scariest part is there MIGHT BE A SEQUEL!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyway, Bebe didn't really wanna watch the show but she suggested going cos I mentioned in Bangkok that I wanted to watch. Now after watching, I should have listened to her and not watch it. Much rather watch The Guardian or The Prestige once more. But Bebe again sat through it, just like how she sat through last night's terrible sing song session.
If these 2 incidents doesn't further cement the fact that Bebe loves me, I don't know what does.
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Bebe wants to go to St James Power Station. And I'll go, cos I love her, simple as that. Bebe was upset that I said it was for her, but it's true mah. If not for her, I wouldn't visit anywhere noisy and smoky. But then, the truth is always hard to accept so I rest my case...
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I felt really bored today after dinner with Bebe and her family. Suddenly felt really aimless and lost. Don't know what happened also.
I'm happy whenever I'm with Bebe, of course there're times when she treads on my toes and upsets me with that machine gun mouth of hers but then, I'm guilty of the same crimes as stated above...
Sigh... It's tough to be in love... Can't live with her, can't live without her...
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Tomorrow is a new day of a new week.
What shit will come? I really don't know.
After so long in the job, I still can't help getting shocked at the amount of types of shit that can possibly present themselves once I step back after a break.
Am I expecting too much of others? Am I not doing good enough myself? Am I being impatient? Am I asking for too much from myself? Or have I just not tried hard enough?
Whatever the case, I know there'll be shit tomorrow.
So I always gotta get my toilet bowl ready. Hopefully it stays functional till most of the shit is cleansed. I gotta upgrade my toilet bowl to a better one soon, probably one with the water jets to clean your ass after shitting...
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Lots of stuff have happened in the last few weeks. Alot of it has raised lots of self doubts about myself. But somehow I've managed to pull through before I break.
I need my strength from somewhere. Right now, Bebe forms a large part of that energy pool. And I know in my future, Bebe will always be a part of my energy source and inspiration, till the day she doesn't want to anymore.
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Saw on Zhang Fei's show that day an interview with Matilda Tao.
Something she said really striked a cord in my heart.
If one day Bebe leaves before me, I really don;t know how to live on anymore cos she's become such an essential part of my life. That's how much I love her. She may never ever feel the same way but I know she loves me too and she'll definitely be sad if I ever leave before her.
That's all I need to know.
I love Bebe. Done...
Good night everybody.
First was ktv. I realized last night that I can't really sing anymore and I'm not as enthusiastic anymore about singing. Bebe didn't have any mood to sing also. Spent half the night trying to find some song that one of the P.Superxxxx girls sang, to no avail. Well, Bebe just sat there trying to get through the night without falling asleep. Effectively from last night, I've lost 95% of going to ktv. I'm getting old...
This afternoon, we watched The Covenant. Looked exciting when I saw the trailer in Bangkok, but the actual movie turned out disappointing. You can't explore 5 families' history, add in teenage angst, a little love and a little subplot about spiders, all within 1.5 hours. Ended up looking like Street Fighter instead of some exciting goth show. And the scary part was not the "darklings" in the show. The scariest part is there MIGHT BE A SEQUEL!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyway, Bebe didn't really wanna watch the show but she suggested going cos I mentioned in Bangkok that I wanted to watch. Now after watching, I should have listened to her and not watch it. Much rather watch The Guardian or The Prestige once more. But Bebe again sat through it, just like how she sat through last night's terrible sing song session.
If these 2 incidents doesn't further cement the fact that Bebe loves me, I don't know what does.
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Bebe wants to go to St James Power Station. And I'll go, cos I love her, simple as that. Bebe was upset that I said it was for her, but it's true mah. If not for her, I wouldn't visit anywhere noisy and smoky. But then, the truth is always hard to accept so I rest my case...
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I felt really bored today after dinner with Bebe and her family. Suddenly felt really aimless and lost. Don't know what happened also.
I'm happy whenever I'm with Bebe, of course there're times when she treads on my toes and upsets me with that machine gun mouth of hers but then, I'm guilty of the same crimes as stated above...
Sigh... It's tough to be in love... Can't live with her, can't live without her...
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Tomorrow is a new day of a new week.
What shit will come? I really don't know.
After so long in the job, I still can't help getting shocked at the amount of types of shit that can possibly present themselves once I step back after a break.
Am I expecting too much of others? Am I not doing good enough myself? Am I being impatient? Am I asking for too much from myself? Or have I just not tried hard enough?
Whatever the case, I know there'll be shit tomorrow.
So I always gotta get my toilet bowl ready. Hopefully it stays functional till most of the shit is cleansed. I gotta upgrade my toilet bowl to a better one soon, probably one with the water jets to clean your ass after shitting...
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Lots of stuff have happened in the last few weeks. Alot of it has raised lots of self doubts about myself. But somehow I've managed to pull through before I break.
I need my strength from somewhere. Right now, Bebe forms a large part of that energy pool. And I know in my future, Bebe will always be a part of my energy source and inspiration, till the day she doesn't want to anymore.
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Saw on Zhang Fei's show that day an interview with Matilda Tao.
Something she said really striked a cord in my heart.
If one day Bebe leaves before me, I really don;t know how to live on anymore cos she's become such an essential part of my life. That's how much I love her. She may never ever feel the same way but I know she loves me too and she'll definitely be sad if I ever leave before her.
That's all I need to know.
I love Bebe. Done...
Good night everybody.
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Again Before I Sleep
I want to make Bebe my wife.
Forget all the crap I've done or said, I want Bebe and only Bebe to be my wife.
And I want Bebe to stay healthy. At whatever price or sacrifice necessary. Yes, whatever sacrifice necessary.
Good night stupid world.
Forget all the crap I've done or said, I want Bebe and only Bebe to be my wife.
And I want Bebe to stay healthy. At whatever price or sacrifice necessary. Yes, whatever sacrifice necessary.
Good night stupid world.
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Before I Sleep
I start work after my "long" break in a few hours.
I'm too exhausted and mentally drained to write much.
I just wanna ask before I sleep, when is good enough gonna be really good enough and when will I not screw up?
Life's sickening sometimes.
Good night.
I'm too exhausted and mentally drained to write much.
I just wanna ask before I sleep, when is good enough gonna be really good enough and when will I not screw up?
Life's sickening sometimes.
Good night.
Friday, October 27, 2006
My Promise
Bebe,
I promise
~ never to yell vulgarities at you again
~ never to accuse you of things you did not do
~ never put you down in any way
~ never to stop loving you(unless you've done something wrong to me)
(You can print this out and blackmail me where necessary.)
I promise
~ never to yell vulgarities at you again
~ never to accuse you of things you did not do
~ never put you down in any way
~ never to stop loving you(unless you've done something wrong to me)
(You can print this out and blackmail me where necessary.)
A New Beginning
After God knows how many bloody months, Ive finally got the opportunity to get back to writing.
Why do I write? Simply cos I can express myself better in words than with my mouth. I shall use my mouth more for eating and kissing(only Bebe of course).
I know this blog is dedicated to my Bebe but I think I shall use it to update about my own little life too, since Bebe is the only one(I think) who reads it...
Here I go...
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WORK UPDATE
I've been confirmed as of 15th September 2006. And guess what, Mr Jxxxx wasn't confirmed. Hmmmmmm... Strange but true.
Work has been piling up ever since and there seems to never be enough time to finish everything. Then I realized the problem(which I actually knew deep inside all along). More work was coming but it's still one person doing two people's jobs. SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Not that I'm complaining cos I know with each new task that I complete, I learn something new. I'm not some computer whiz but at least I try. On the contrary, Mr Smarty Pants claims Excel Basic was so easy he kept falling asleep but keeps submitting stuff to boss that has bad formatting, wrong spelling and generally bad bad bad!!!!!!!!!!!!! And who has to save the day? Me me me!!!! Do I get any thanks? No. All I get is bullshit.
Well, I chose this path so I shall stick to it till my mind and body can't take it anymore.
Enough of work for tonight. Anyway I'm writing tonight cos I know the next 2 nights I won't get any chance to. And after I reach Bangkok on Sunday, I won't touch a computer till I get back cos I promised Bebe I won't bring my laptop in case I get tempted to work.
On one hand, I'm really looking forward to this break cos the last trip to Bangkok wasn't really great. However, I can't help but worry how Mr J might screw things up while I'm gone. Never mind, once the plane takes off, I'll leave all my worries here and thoroughly enjoy myself for once.
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OUR ANNIVERSARY
Well well, the 2 of us managed to survive one whole year without killing each other(though O nearly killed myself a few times :p).
We both managed to get breaks on the fateful day 3rd October 2006.
To make things short:
OTO Trimax: $330
Hotel Room: $280
Flowers: $60
Champagne and Cake: $80
Tips for all involved: $40
Miscellaneous: Unaccountable
The look on Bebe's face: Priceless
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US
US means us. Not United States.
It's been a really long and tough road for me and Bebe.
Looking back, I'm amazed how we got through.
So many times we nearly gave up. So many times I nearly lost the woman I love the most.
Why? I'm a jealous, egoistic and proud dude. Sometimes too much for my own good.
I've been stupid enough to have said things that I didn't mean, purely out of anger. And Bebe has been hurt so many times, it's no wonder she needed a scope to see what's wrong. On a side note, I'm really relieved that the scope revealed nothing abnormal.
Bebe is bad tempered. Bebe smokes, drinks and has a temper more fiery than chilli padi. Bebe is always full of gas and burps and farts more frequently than anyone I've known. Bebe likes to be sayanged but always pretends to be angry or is really angry hoping that I will pacify her.
Me? I'm bad tempered. I don't smoke. I drink when I have no choice. My temper is probably 10 times more than Bebe's. I'm always full of pride and jealousy and I get jealous and angry more frequently than anyone I've known. I don't like Bebe to get angry or be unreasonable and always gotta coax myself to sayang Bebe. Why? Cos I really don't know when sayang will or will not work. So I don't try, cos I don't wanna fail.
How did we survive so long?
How many times has Bebe asked me if we're really compatible and we have nothing in common and we should break up blah blah blah....
After much thought and a new haircut, my conclusion is: WE ARE TOGETHER COS WE ARE TRULY COMFORTABLE AND HAPPY IN EACH OTHER'S PRESENCE. WE ARE HAPPY FOR ALL THE SIMPLE THINGS WE DO TOGETHER. JUST HOLDING HANDS AND WALKING TOGETHER. JUST HUGGING AND KISSING. JUST SITTING IN A CAFE, READING OUR OWN COPY OF THE PAPERS, KNOWING THE OTHER PERSON IS JUST THERE. AND IT ALL BOILS DOWN TO L-O-V-E LOVE....................................................
It's not about the fancy restaurants or the fancy presents. Not about 1 million and 1 surprises. Not about how much money I can make. Not about how many hours we gotta work. It's just love and enjoying each other in every way possible.
Yup! Confirmed, guaranteed plus chopped. We are meant to be...
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Why do I write? Simply cos I can express myself better in words than with my mouth. I shall use my mouth more for eating and kissing(only Bebe of course).
I know this blog is dedicated to my Bebe but I think I shall use it to update about my own little life too, since Bebe is the only one(I think) who reads it...
Here I go...
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WORK UPDATE
I've been confirmed as of 15th September 2006. And guess what, Mr Jxxxx wasn't confirmed. Hmmmmmm... Strange but true.
Work has been piling up ever since and there seems to never be enough time to finish everything. Then I realized the problem(which I actually knew deep inside all along). More work was coming but it's still one person doing two people's jobs. SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Not that I'm complaining cos I know with each new task that I complete, I learn something new. I'm not some computer whiz but at least I try. On the contrary, Mr Smarty Pants claims Excel Basic was so easy he kept falling asleep but keeps submitting stuff to boss that has bad formatting, wrong spelling and generally bad bad bad!!!!!!!!!!!!! And who has to save the day? Me me me!!!! Do I get any thanks? No. All I get is bullshit.
Well, I chose this path so I shall stick to it till my mind and body can't take it anymore.
Enough of work for tonight. Anyway I'm writing tonight cos I know the next 2 nights I won't get any chance to. And after I reach Bangkok on Sunday, I won't touch a computer till I get back cos I promised Bebe I won't bring my laptop in case I get tempted to work.
On one hand, I'm really looking forward to this break cos the last trip to Bangkok wasn't really great. However, I can't help but worry how Mr J might screw things up while I'm gone. Never mind, once the plane takes off, I'll leave all my worries here and thoroughly enjoy myself for once.
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OUR ANNIVERSARY
Well well, the 2 of us managed to survive one whole year without killing each other(though O nearly killed myself a few times :p).
We both managed to get breaks on the fateful day 3rd October 2006.
To make things short:
OTO Trimax: $330
Hotel Room: $280
Flowers: $60
Champagne and Cake: $80
Tips for all involved: $40
Miscellaneous: Unaccountable
The look on Bebe's face: Priceless
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US
US means us. Not United States.
It's been a really long and tough road for me and Bebe.
Looking back, I'm amazed how we got through.
So many times we nearly gave up. So many times I nearly lost the woman I love the most.
Why? I'm a jealous, egoistic and proud dude. Sometimes too much for my own good.
I've been stupid enough to have said things that I didn't mean, purely out of anger. And Bebe has been hurt so many times, it's no wonder she needed a scope to see what's wrong. On a side note, I'm really relieved that the scope revealed nothing abnormal.
Bebe is bad tempered. Bebe smokes, drinks and has a temper more fiery than chilli padi. Bebe is always full of gas and burps and farts more frequently than anyone I've known. Bebe likes to be sayanged but always pretends to be angry or is really angry hoping that I will pacify her.
Me? I'm bad tempered. I don't smoke. I drink when I have no choice. My temper is probably 10 times more than Bebe's. I'm always full of pride and jealousy and I get jealous and angry more frequently than anyone I've known. I don't like Bebe to get angry or be unreasonable and always gotta coax myself to sayang Bebe. Why? Cos I really don't know when sayang will or will not work. So I don't try, cos I don't wanna fail.
How did we survive so long?
How many times has Bebe asked me if we're really compatible and we have nothing in common and we should break up blah blah blah....
After much thought and a new haircut, my conclusion is: WE ARE TOGETHER COS WE ARE TRULY COMFORTABLE AND HAPPY IN EACH OTHER'S PRESENCE. WE ARE HAPPY FOR ALL THE SIMPLE THINGS WE DO TOGETHER. JUST HOLDING HANDS AND WALKING TOGETHER. JUST HUGGING AND KISSING. JUST SITTING IN A CAFE, READING OUR OWN COPY OF THE PAPERS, KNOWING THE OTHER PERSON IS JUST THERE. AND IT ALL BOILS DOWN TO L-O-V-E LOVE....................................................
It's not about the fancy restaurants or the fancy presents. Not about 1 million and 1 surprises. Not about how much money I can make. Not about how many hours we gotta work. It's just love and enjoying each other in every way possible.
Yup! Confirmed, guaranteed plus chopped. We are meant to be...
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Saturday, June 24, 2006
Last night
It's less than 24 hours before Bebe's back. As much as I miss her, I know she'd wanna rest amd recover when she gets back. I feel so bad that I can't pick her up from the airport. Tomorrow night gonna be very busy. Doesn't help that Mr Jxxxx is not doing his share of his work.
Now I gotta work at home cos he left me with a big pile of his SHIT to clear. Hopefully the day will come when the truth comes to light and justice is served.
I miss you bebe. Come back soon. Life sucks without you.
Now I gotta work at home cos he left me with a big pile of his SHIT to clear. Hopefully the day will come when the truth comes to light and justice is served.
I miss you bebe. Come back soon. Life sucks without you.
Friday, June 23, 2006
Before work on a lousy friday
Jus msn with bebe.
Her fever's down. That's a relief.
Today gotta be at work by 1pm so this is gonna be a short entry.
I really wish I was Superman so I can be there for the people I love and care about whenevr they need me.
But I'm not.
I'll keep reminding myself of that.
Anyway I don't think I can cut it as a reporter also. Plus I look bad with glasses.
Pitiful man. Trying to console himself.
Bebe'll be back tomorrow but God knows when I'll get to see her. But never mind la, as long as she recovers properly. We got many many years ahead of us.
Okie gotta go. I really wanna be a better person for everyone around me.
I love you Bebe. And I miss you terribly as usual.
Her fever's down. That's a relief.
Today gotta be at work by 1pm so this is gonna be a short entry.
I really wish I was Superman so I can be there for the people I love and care about whenevr they need me.
But I'm not.
I'll keep reminding myself of that.
Anyway I don't think I can cut it as a reporter also. Plus I look bad with glasses.
Pitiful man. Trying to console himself.
Bebe'll be back tomorrow but God knows when I'll get to see her. But never mind la, as long as she recovers properly. We got many many years ahead of us.
Okie gotta go. I really wanna be a better person for everyone around me.
I love you Bebe. And I miss you terribly as usual.
A little note before bed
Just finished my shower. Long day at work. Bebe smsed me earlier but I was to busy to reply. She misses me. :) That just made my day a whole lot better. Call me cheap thrill if you want but a little concern or love from Bebe goes a long long way for me.
Mum's back in her room sleeping. Hope that means grandma's condition is stabilized. I'm so worried. Bebe is probably still sick in Bangkok and I can't do anything about it. I just wanna hug her to sleep and let her know how much she means to me.
If only I was Superman. Then can fly anywhere in the world faster than the speed of light. Don't need to buy ticket some more. So whenever Bebe feels lonely anywhere in the world I can be there by her side in a jiffy.
2 more days before she's back. Can't wait. I feel so bad that I can't pick her up at the airport.
I love you honey. And I miss you til it hurts.
Sleep well my beautiful woman. Me shall try to sleep now.
MUACK!!!!!!!
Mum's back in her room sleeping. Hope that means grandma's condition is stabilized. I'm so worried. Bebe is probably still sick in Bangkok and I can't do anything about it. I just wanna hug her to sleep and let her know how much she means to me.
If only I was Superman. Then can fly anywhere in the world faster than the speed of light. Don't need to buy ticket some more. So whenever Bebe feels lonely anywhere in the world I can be there by her side in a jiffy.
2 more days before she's back. Can't wait. I feel so bad that I can't pick her up at the airport.
I love you honey. And I miss you til it hurts.
Sleep well my beautiful woman. Me shall try to sleep now.
MUACK!!!!!!!
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Terrible day
Today is a terrible day.
Bebe is sick and all alone in Bangkok.
I fell in the shower and hurt my wrist.
Mum called and told me grandma's in very terrible condition, could go anytime.
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I'm sorry I'm not a better person
I'm sorry I can't stop so many bad things from happening.
I'm sorry I can't be by Bebe's side to take care of her.
I'm sorry I can't be by Grandma's side.
I'm sorry I've been a terrible boyfriend, son, grandson.
I'm sorry.
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It's a terrible day. Can I just suddenly wake up and realize that it's all just a nightmare?
Bebe is sick and all alone in Bangkok.
I fell in the shower and hurt my wrist.
Mum called and told me grandma's in very terrible condition, could go anytime.
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I'm sorry I'm not a better person
I'm sorry I can't stop so many bad things from happening.
I'm sorry I can't be by Bebe's side to take care of her.
I'm sorry I can't be by Grandma's side.
I'm sorry I've been a terrible boyfriend, son, grandson.
I'm sorry.
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It's a terrible day. Can I just suddenly wake up and realize that it's all just a nightmare?
Bebe in Bangkok(Day 2.5)
It's 1245am on Thursday morning.
Portugal have just beaten Mexico 2-1. And stupid Angola could only draw 1-1 with Iran. Me lost money. Good thing is Bebe won the Portugal game.
Bebe has been in Bangkok since Tuesday. Didn't think about updating the blog til now. Guess I've been too tired.
The new job's looking good, only that I gotta do a lot of sai gang cos the person who was supposed to be my mentor and guide me along turned out to be lazy and irresponsible. It's a matter of time before either he or me crack. Pray hard ladies and gentlemen.
Recently me and Bebe have been going thru some bad patches. Quarrels have been escalating to almost points of no return but somehow we both hung on. Think we realize how much we love each other. At least that's what I think is keeping us together.
We both got tempers from hell. I keep telling myself to give in to Bebe and I can't say I didn't try. Maybe I just haven't pushed myself hard enough.
Like Bebe always say, we're such a picture of perfect harmony whenever we're not at loggerheads. I can't agree more. People who see us always have the impression that we're very much in love. In fact we are. It's just that we always end up not giving in when disputes arise.
Sigh... It's tough to be in love. But living with another person has never been easy anyway.
I know I love Bebe enough to try harder and strive on.
Strive to love her better. Strive hard at work to give her a better life. Strive to be nicer to her. Strive to be nicer to myself and not give myself too much pressure. And strive to be a better person all round.
I'm blessed to have a woman love me so much. Love me to the extent that she let herself go without blanket and get bitten by mozzies and god knows what just to spend one more night with me. Thank you honey. I'll get you a blanket and mozzie incense by the next time you sleep over.
Future plans?
I'm gonna put $10 each on Togo beating France and japan beating Brazil. Crazy right? But for fun only la. With the crap that's happening in this World Cup, who knows...
For now I just want Bebe to come back safe and sound.
She's falling sick. Drink more water and smoke less. That's as much as I can say before she says I'm too naggy and worry too much. Hope she doesn't get sick of my worrying in the future.
Okie. Gonna sleep now. Another day of Sai Gang later.
I love you Bebe. And I miss you like crazy. As usual.
Sweet dreams.
Portugal have just beaten Mexico 2-1. And stupid Angola could only draw 1-1 with Iran. Me lost money. Good thing is Bebe won the Portugal game.
Bebe has been in Bangkok since Tuesday. Didn't think about updating the blog til now. Guess I've been too tired.
The new job's looking good, only that I gotta do a lot of sai gang cos the person who was supposed to be my mentor and guide me along turned out to be lazy and irresponsible. It's a matter of time before either he or me crack. Pray hard ladies and gentlemen.
Recently me and Bebe have been going thru some bad patches. Quarrels have been escalating to almost points of no return but somehow we both hung on. Think we realize how much we love each other. At least that's what I think is keeping us together.
We both got tempers from hell. I keep telling myself to give in to Bebe and I can't say I didn't try. Maybe I just haven't pushed myself hard enough.
Like Bebe always say, we're such a picture of perfect harmony whenever we're not at loggerheads. I can't agree more. People who see us always have the impression that we're very much in love. In fact we are. It's just that we always end up not giving in when disputes arise.
Sigh... It's tough to be in love. But living with another person has never been easy anyway.
I know I love Bebe enough to try harder and strive on.
Strive to love her better. Strive hard at work to give her a better life. Strive to be nicer to her. Strive to be nicer to myself and not give myself too much pressure. And strive to be a better person all round.
I'm blessed to have a woman love me so much. Love me to the extent that she let herself go without blanket and get bitten by mozzies and god knows what just to spend one more night with me. Thank you honey. I'll get you a blanket and mozzie incense by the next time you sleep over.
Future plans?
I'm gonna put $10 each on Togo beating France and japan beating Brazil. Crazy right? But for fun only la. With the crap that's happening in this World Cup, who knows...
For now I just want Bebe to come back safe and sound.
She's falling sick. Drink more water and smoke less. That's as much as I can say before she says I'm too naggy and worry too much. Hope she doesn't get sick of my worrying in the future.
Okie. Gonna sleep now. Another day of Sai Gang later.
I love you Bebe. And I miss you like crazy. As usual.
Sweet dreams.
Bebe in Bangkok(Day 2.5)
It's 1245am on Thursday morning.
Portugal have just beaten Mexico 2-1. And stupid Angola could only draw 1-1 with Iran. Me lost money. Good thing is Bebe won the Portugal game.
Bebe has been in Bangkok since Tuesday. Didn't think about updating the blog til now. Guess I've been too tired.
The new job's looking good, only that I gotta do a lot of sai gang cos the person who was supposed to be my mentor and guide me along turned out to be lazy and irresponsible. It's a matter of time before either he or me crack. Pray hard ladies and gentlemen.
Recently me and Bebe have been going thru some bad patches. Quarrels have been escalating to almost points of no return but somehow we both hung on. Think we realize how much we love each other. At least that's what I think is keeping us together.
We both got tempers from hell. I keep telling myself to give in to Bebe and I can't say I didn't try. Maybe I just haven't pushed myself hard enough.
Like Bebe always say, we're such a picture of perfect harmony whenever we're not at loggerheads. I can't agree more. People who see us always have the impression that we're very much in love. In fact we are. It's just that we always end up not giving in when disputes arise.
Sigh... It's tough to be in love. But living with another person has never been easy anyway.
I know I love Bebe enough to try harder and strive on.
Strive to love her better. Strive hard at work to give her a better life. Strive to be nicer to her. Strive to be nicer to myself and not give myself too much pressure. And strive to be a better person all round.
I'm blessed to have a woman love me so much. Love me to the extent that she let herself go without blanket and get bitten by mozzies and god knows what just to spend one more night with me. Thank you honey. I'll get you a blanket and mozzie incense by the next time you sleep over.
Future plans?
I'm gonna put $10 each on Togo beating France and japan beating Brazil. Crazy right? But for fun only la. With the crap that's happening in this World Cup, who knows...
For now I just want Bebe to come back safe and sound.
She's falling sick. Drink more water and smoke less. That's as much as I can say before she says I'm too naggy and worry too much. Hope she doesn't get sick of my worrying in the future.
Okie. Gonna sleep now. Another day of Sai Gang later.
I love you Bebe. And I miss you like crazy. As usual.
Sweet dreams.
Portugal have just beaten Mexico 2-1. And stupid Angola could only draw 1-1 with Iran. Me lost money. Good thing is Bebe won the Portugal game.
Bebe has been in Bangkok since Tuesday. Didn't think about updating the blog til now. Guess I've been too tired.
The new job's looking good, only that I gotta do a lot of sai gang cos the person who was supposed to be my mentor and guide me along turned out to be lazy and irresponsible. It's a matter of time before either he or me crack. Pray hard ladies and gentlemen.
Recently me and Bebe have been going thru some bad patches. Quarrels have been escalating to almost points of no return but somehow we both hung on. Think we realize how much we love each other. At least that's what I think is keeping us together.
We both got tempers from hell. I keep telling myself to give in to Bebe and I can't say I didn't try. Maybe I just haven't pushed myself hard enough.
Like Bebe always say, we're such a picture of perfect harmony whenever we're not at loggerheads. I can't agree more. People who see us always have the impression that we're very much in love. In fact we are. It's just that we always end up not giving in when disputes arise.
Sigh... It's tough to be in love. But living with another person has never been easy anyway.
I know I love Bebe enough to try harder and strive on.
Strive to love her better. Strive hard at work to give her a better life. Strive to be nicer to her. Strive to be nicer to myself and not give myself too much pressure. And strive to be a better person all round.
I'm blessed to have a woman love me so much. Love me to the extent that she let herself go without blanket and get bitten by mozzies and god knows what just to spend one more night with me. Thank you honey. I'll get you a blanket and mozzie incense by the next time you sleep over.
Future plans?
I'm gonna put $10 each on Togo beating France and japan beating Brazil. Crazy right? But for fun only la. With the crap that's happening in this World Cup, who knows...
For now I just want Bebe to come back safe and sound.
She's falling sick. Drink more water and smoke less. That's as much as I can say before she says I'm too naggy and worry too much. Hope she doesn't get sick of my worrying in the future.
Okie. Gonna sleep now. Another day of Sai Gang later.
I love you Bebe. And I miss you like crazy. As usual.
Sweet dreams.
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Bebe in Jit-Pun (Day 11)
Today is 18th of May 2006...
Question: What's the big deal?
A: One more day to Bebe's return
B: 10 more days to Bintan
C: I forgot to buy Toto
D: I miraculously got my wallet back
E: All of the above
Answer: EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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This morning at the gym was really gay festival. Don't know why also. I've noticed that there're more of them on Thursdays.... Thursday is Gayday?????
Excerpts from some gay activities today...
List of characters:
G1- Skinny pimple faced bugger, wearing tight cheapo singlet and neon yellow shorts
G2- Taller version of G1, better complexion and bigger muscles
G3- Youngster, fair and smooth like Boon Tong Kee Chicken, black tight singlet, red cotton shorts without underwear. Don't ask how I know, alot of dangling movement was sighted today
G4- Old musculur guy. Fucking ugly. FBI T-shirt(FBI: Female Body Inspector). Track pants.
PT1- Personal Trainer 1. Chinese. Ugly.
PT2- Personal Trainer 2. Chinese. Huge.
Me- Me
Scene 1(in the locker room)
G1: Wah not many people today.
G2: Yalor then no need to wait for machine.
Me: "KNN! Gym so little machines meh, must wait!"
G1: Xian. Tomorrow must fly again. Don't know what class they put me in this time?
Me: "Chao Ah Gua Class la what class!"
G2: Don't worry la, sure business class. I make sure liao.
G1: Wah you so good to me.
G2: Then you know what to do later lor.
G1: Here?
G2: No la. Later we find somewhere la.
Me: ..................................................................
Scene 2 ( Level 2, weights station)
G3: How many sets?
PT1: Since you're so keen, 5 sets la.
G3: Huh!!!!! You want Lim Beh to die ah?
Me: "Lim Beh? More like Lim Bu!"
PT1: You can one.
G3: Make sure nobody see I zao gng ok?
PT1: Nothing to see what?
G3: Hey alot k!!!!! People still virgin leh!!!
Me: "Too much information..."
Scene 3 (Level 1, Crosstrainer)
Me: (on crosstrainer, level 14, speed 13, HR 140, time to go 16mins)
G4: (Takes the machine next to mine) Hey nice ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Me: "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!"
It's tough when you can't talk and gotta keep all your thoughts in your head......
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Finally one more day to go...
I miss you so much Bebe...
Can;t wait for Bintan and Big Walk..
MUACK!!!
Question: What's the big deal?
A: One more day to Bebe's return
B: 10 more days to Bintan
C: I forgot to buy Toto
D: I miraculously got my wallet back
E: All of the above
Answer: EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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This morning at the gym was really gay festival. Don't know why also. I've noticed that there're more of them on Thursdays.... Thursday is Gayday?????
Excerpts from some gay activities today...
List of characters:
G1- Skinny pimple faced bugger, wearing tight cheapo singlet and neon yellow shorts
G2- Taller version of G1, better complexion and bigger muscles
G3- Youngster, fair and smooth like Boon Tong Kee Chicken, black tight singlet, red cotton shorts without underwear. Don't ask how I know, alot of dangling movement was sighted today
G4- Old musculur guy. Fucking ugly. FBI T-shirt(FBI: Female Body Inspector). Track pants.
PT1- Personal Trainer 1. Chinese. Ugly.
PT2- Personal Trainer 2. Chinese. Huge.
Me- Me
Scene 1(in the locker room)
G1: Wah not many people today.
G2: Yalor then no need to wait for machine.
Me: "KNN! Gym so little machines meh, must wait!"
G1: Xian. Tomorrow must fly again. Don't know what class they put me in this time?
Me: "Chao Ah Gua Class la what class!"
G2: Don't worry la, sure business class. I make sure liao.
G1: Wah you so good to me.
G2: Then you know what to do later lor.
G1: Here?
G2: No la. Later we find somewhere la.
Me: ..................................................................
Scene 2 ( Level 2, weights station)
G3: How many sets?
PT1: Since you're so keen, 5 sets la.
G3: Huh!!!!! You want Lim Beh to die ah?
Me: "Lim Beh? More like Lim Bu!"
PT1: You can one.
G3: Make sure nobody see I zao gng ok?
PT1: Nothing to see what?
G3: Hey alot k!!!!! People still virgin leh!!!
Me: "Too much information..."
Scene 3 (Level 1, Crosstrainer)
Me: (on crosstrainer, level 14, speed 13, HR 140, time to go 16mins)
G4: (Takes the machine next to mine) Hey nice ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Me: "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!"
It's tough when you can't talk and gotta keep all your thoughts in your head......
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Finally one more day to go...
I miss you so much Bebe...
Can;t wait for Bintan and Big Walk..
MUACK!!!
Bebe in Jit-Pun (Day 10) - Delayed Post
Boring Day. No news from Bebe cos she's in Yokohama. Went for interviews today. Gotta wait for reply by next week. Sigh...
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Bebe in Jit-Pun (Day 9)
Here I am, in the intternet cafe.Updating my blog. Sorry for the last few boring entries. Really nothing much happenng.
Got another job offer today. Don't know why so many people think I'm looking for another job, written on my face meh???????
See how la. All I want now is a nice cup of coffee. And for Bebe to come back.
I miss Bebe so much. When she comes back I just wanna hug her for as long as she'll allow me.
Life just isn't complete without my woman around...
Got another job offer today. Don't know why so many people think I'm looking for another job, written on my face meh???????
See how la. All I want now is a nice cup of coffee. And for Bebe to come back.
I miss Bebe so much. When she comes back I just wanna hug her for as long as she'll allow me.
Life just isn't complete without my woman around...
Bebe in Jit-Pun (Day 8) - Delayed Post
Today is the day after Mother's Day. Very tiring yesterday. So many mothers, see until blur.
Never knew there were so many mums in Singapore. Got big mum, small mum, tall mum, short mum, thin mum, fat mum, pretty mum, ugly mum, very ugly mum, very very very ugly mum. So many mums...
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This morning at the gym, nothing happened. Boring. But at least no attack of the gays...
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I had 2 offers from 2 hotel GMs today. Job offers, not sex offers.
Gonna see them on Wednesday and Thursday. See what they have for me la. Probably going back to the hotel got better prospects. If not forever cannot afford Bebe's 1 carrot, oops sorry, 1 carat diamond ring.
Wish me luck.
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Tonight's function for Mr Wee Hxxx Lxxxx finished without problems. Bugger was so happy he signed a $300 tip on his bill. My staff are all so happy. Already planning how to finish off the money liao.
Sigh... Kids nowadays... Every night teong, next day all come to work like zombies.
By the time closing was done, it was already 11pm. Yenny offered me and Dennis a lift home. I declined giving the excuse that I was meeting friends for supper. So the 2 of them went back without me.
Why? Cos I promised my poor beautiful Bebe I wouldn;t take a lift from Yenny. That is how much Bebe means to me.
Crazily decided to skip the MRT and walk home instead. Might as well since I have trouble sleeping every time Bebe's away.
Didn't know there were so many Banglas on Orchard Road in the middle of the night. Don't need to work meh? Holding hands some more. So loving...
Uneventful walk, other than some Bengs racing in WRX and Civics. KNN! Chit Za Buay Za Cha See Lang...
Halfway decided to sms Bebe that I reached home liao so she wouldn't worry. But she was probably asleep.
Walked past Sin Hai Shan around 1245am. Surprisingly still open. The auntie was so shocked to see me, ask me wanna da pao Ter gwa or not. So nice of her. So pai say so long never go there liao... Cannot hide forever la, one day must still bring Bebe back there for live prawns. This time, I will not be on the phone with anyone.
Reached home at 1 plus. Showered liao, read a bit then go to bed.
Bebe's still not back. SIgh...
Hope I can see her in my dreams...
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Never knew there were so many mums in Singapore. Got big mum, small mum, tall mum, short mum, thin mum, fat mum, pretty mum, ugly mum, very ugly mum, very very very ugly mum. So many mums...
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This morning at the gym, nothing happened. Boring. But at least no attack of the gays...
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I had 2 offers from 2 hotel GMs today. Job offers, not sex offers.
Gonna see them on Wednesday and Thursday. See what they have for me la. Probably going back to the hotel got better prospects. If not forever cannot afford Bebe's 1 carrot, oops sorry, 1 carat diamond ring.
Wish me luck.
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Tonight's function for Mr Wee Hxxx Lxxxx finished without problems. Bugger was so happy he signed a $300 tip on his bill. My staff are all so happy. Already planning how to finish off the money liao.
Sigh... Kids nowadays... Every night teong, next day all come to work like zombies.
By the time closing was done, it was already 11pm. Yenny offered me and Dennis a lift home. I declined giving the excuse that I was meeting friends for supper. So the 2 of them went back without me.
Why? Cos I promised my poor beautiful Bebe I wouldn;t take a lift from Yenny. That is how much Bebe means to me.
Crazily decided to skip the MRT and walk home instead. Might as well since I have trouble sleeping every time Bebe's away.
Didn't know there were so many Banglas on Orchard Road in the middle of the night. Don't need to work meh? Holding hands some more. So loving...
Uneventful walk, other than some Bengs racing in WRX and Civics. KNN! Chit Za Buay Za Cha See Lang...
Halfway decided to sms Bebe that I reached home liao so she wouldn't worry. But she was probably asleep.
Walked past Sin Hai Shan around 1245am. Surprisingly still open. The auntie was so shocked to see me, ask me wanna da pao Ter gwa or not. So nice of her. So pai say so long never go there liao... Cannot hide forever la, one day must still bring Bebe back there for live prawns. This time, I will not be on the phone with anyone.
Reached home at 1 plus. Showered liao, read a bit then go to bed.
Bebe's still not back. SIgh...
Hope I can see her in my dreams...
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Bebe in Jit-Pun (Day 7) - Delayed
Today is Mother's Day.
Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers in the world.
Gonna be a very busy day at the restaurant.
Sigh... Tired...
Bought durian cake for Bebe's mum from Puteri Mas but discovered she'd gone to M'sia with Luke.
Sigh... Plan to impress failed....
Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers in the world.
Gonna be a very busy day at the restaurant.
Sigh... Tired...
Bought durian cake for Bebe's mum from Puteri Mas but discovered she'd gone to M'sia with Luke.
Sigh... Plan to impress failed....
Saturday, May 13, 2006
Bebe in Jit-Pun (Day 6)
My beautiful Bebe is gonna spend the weekend with Jie at the hot spring. Glad she'll be enjoying herself. Me shall just spend the weekend working and at the gym.
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I headed for the gym at 6am this morning. Couldn't sleep. I hate missing people. Not people going missing but thinking of people when they're not around. Actually it's just one person. Bebe la who else. The feeling of loneliness and emptiness is terrible. Guess I'll never be able to get used to it.
The train was half empty when I took it so managed to get a seat at the last cabin. KNN, chit za buay za also got show to see. This Mamak sitting diagonally to me was singing like there was no one else in the train. Using IPOD some more!!!!!! From my limited knowledge of the sacred language of Tamil or Bangladeshi or whatever he was singing, it was probably some song from some Bollywood movie soundtrack. Luckily me also got my IPOD plugged in so just turned the volume up some more. HUO-HUO-HUO-HUO-HUO-HUO-HUO-HUO!!!!!!! Nothing like a Jay Chou Kao Beh Kao Bu song to keep me awake.
At Lavender, the Mamak got up to alight. At the door, he put his hand into his sling bag(fake Nike, fucking tick also tick wrong side), guess he wanted to take out his IPOD.
KNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNBBBB!!!
His standard white IPOD earphones were connected to ............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................. CREATIVE MP3 PLAYER!!!!!! Low end one some more!!!!!!
Basket!!!! The things people do to pretend they also got IPOD. Only in SIngapore, ladies and gentlemen!!!!! The Curse of the Kiasu-saurus.
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Reached gym at 7am. Good, bo lang.....
Treadmill bo lang.
Cross trainer bo lang.
Stairmaster bo lang.
730am. Lang lai le....
So escaped upstairs to the weights area.
Leg Press bo lang.
Pec Fly bo lang.
Military press bo lang.
8am. Lang lai le...
Fast fast shower then I was out of there.
No attack of the gays today. Woo Hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Nice breakfast at TCC. Too bad Bebe wasn't there. So lonely.
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Work ok la. Nothing happening today. That lao cha bor off. Heng ah. Peace and quiet.
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Ok ok. I've done the reservation for me and Bebe's Bintan trip. A bit less than $450. Ferry there at 2pm, back at 230pm Bintan time.
Get ready for 3 days 2 nights of passion and non stop action. Wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah!
I wish...
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Gotta go. Zo gang liao.
I miss you bebe!
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I headed for the gym at 6am this morning. Couldn't sleep. I hate missing people. Not people going missing but thinking of people when they're not around. Actually it's just one person. Bebe la who else. The feeling of loneliness and emptiness is terrible. Guess I'll never be able to get used to it.
The train was half empty when I took it so managed to get a seat at the last cabin. KNN, chit za buay za also got show to see. This Mamak sitting diagonally to me was singing like there was no one else in the train. Using IPOD some more!!!!!! From my limited knowledge of the sacred language of Tamil or Bangladeshi or whatever he was singing, it was probably some song from some Bollywood movie soundtrack. Luckily me also got my IPOD plugged in so just turned the volume up some more. HUO-HUO-HUO-HUO-HUO-HUO-HUO-HUO!!!!!!! Nothing like a Jay Chou Kao Beh Kao Bu song to keep me awake.
At Lavender, the Mamak got up to alight. At the door, he put his hand into his sling bag(fake Nike, fucking tick also tick wrong side), guess he wanted to take out his IPOD.
KNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNBBBB!!!
His standard white IPOD earphones were connected to ............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................. CREATIVE MP3 PLAYER!!!!!! Low end one some more!!!!!!
Basket!!!! The things people do to pretend they also got IPOD. Only in SIngapore, ladies and gentlemen!!!!! The Curse of the Kiasu-saurus.
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Reached gym at 7am. Good, bo lang.....
Treadmill bo lang.
Cross trainer bo lang.
Stairmaster bo lang.
730am. Lang lai le....
So escaped upstairs to the weights area.
Leg Press bo lang.
Pec Fly bo lang.
Military press bo lang.
8am. Lang lai le...
Fast fast shower then I was out of there.
No attack of the gays today. Woo Hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Nice breakfast at TCC. Too bad Bebe wasn't there. So lonely.
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Work ok la. Nothing happening today. That lao cha bor off. Heng ah. Peace and quiet.
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Ok ok. I've done the reservation for me and Bebe's Bintan trip. A bit less than $450. Ferry there at 2pm, back at 230pm Bintan time.
Get ready for 3 days 2 nights of passion and non stop action. Wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah!
I wish...
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Gotta go. Zo gang liao.
I miss you bebe!
Bebe in Jit-Pun (Day 5) - Delayed
Wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Me got replacement phone liao!!!!!!
Ned from Nokia passed me a trial set from his office and only charged me half the normal price. N70 some more!!!!!!!! So my good service in the past has its rewards after all.
Bebe suspected Ned's gay. But cannot be la. He got a son and daughter about 4,5 yeasrs younger than me so can't be la. At least I hope not. I've had enough of gays for a week after that KOG incident.
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Finally heard Bebe's voice just past 11pm. SUch a wonderful end to a tiring day. I miss you.
More details in the next post...
Me got replacement phone liao!!!!!!
Ned from Nokia passed me a trial set from his office and only charged me half the normal price. N70 some more!!!!!!!! So my good service in the past has its rewards after all.
Bebe suspected Ned's gay. But cannot be la. He got a son and daughter about 4,5 yeasrs younger than me so can't be la. At least I hope not. I've had enough of gays for a week after that KOG incident.
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Finally heard Bebe's voice just past 11pm. SUch a wonderful end to a tiring day. I miss you.
More details in the next post...
Thursday, May 11, 2006
Bebe in Jit-Pun (Day 4)
Day 4 without Bebe liao.
Woken up by a phone call at 6 plus. My poor cashier got chicken pox, so me gotta go her place in Tampines to get safe key from her. Sigh...
Talked to Bebe for a while then decided on picking up her IC from her place. Too bad, my future father-in-law not home at 930am so headed to gym for workout.
This was where my happening day began...
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Today no PT so I did my own cardio on the cross trainer. Decided to try level 10 then slowly increase to level 15. KNN... Difficult leh.... Forgot yesterday I did legs so today "kabolat". So ended up training my arms more than my legs.
The gym was quite empty today as everyone had gone back to their nice air conditioned office. When I got to the weights area, HO SAY LIAO!!!!!!! No gays!!!!!!! At least I thought no gays.
Did bench press first. NO strange stares or strange movements. My Gaydar detected no gay activities.
1st set. Nothing.
2nd set. Nothing.
3rd set. HONG GAN GU GU BIRD (henceforth known as HG3B, macam bird flu virus strain)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Juat when I thought for once I could train without gay interference....
Arrival of KOG(King Of Gays)!!!!!!
Target Name: Sebastian(Don't know Tan or Ong or Teo or Chua or Phua or KaCng la, can't be bothered, not Lim can liao)
Height: 1.7m
Weight: Between 80 to 85kg
Favourite colours: Pink and sky blue
Favourite phrases: 1) Ai Yo Eh! 2) Ni Nia Eh! 3) Wah, so light! (KNN, 200 kg still light. Xiao ah!)
Favourite activities: 1) Looking at him/herself 2) Looking at other males, big, small, fat, thin, ugly or handsome. Jia ga liao. 3) Sitting half naked in underwear in men's locker room, ogling men
So our dear Sebastian appeared at approximately 1025am at the dumbbells area. No companion today. Guess all the other gays are on MC. Too much anal action=Ka Cng Failure.
Me trying very hard not to stare but for Lim Beh's sake, he was wearing translucent tank top cut to his nipple level and tight pink tights. Ok, some joker is gonna ask me why must call tights tight or how can tights not be tight.
Woken up by a phone call at 6 plus. My poor cashier got chicken pox, so me gotta go her place in Tampines to get safe key from her. Sigh...
Talked to Bebe for a while then decided on picking up her IC from her place. Too bad, my future father-in-law not home at 930am so headed to gym for workout.
This was where my happening day began...
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Today no PT so I did my own cardio on the cross trainer. Decided to try level 10 then slowly increase to level 15. KNN... Difficult leh.... Forgot yesterday I did legs so today "kabolat". So ended up training my arms more than my legs.
The gym was quite empty today as everyone had gone back to their nice air conditioned office. When I got to the weights area, HO SAY LIAO!!!!!!! No gays!!!!!!! At least I thought no gays.
Did bench press first. NO strange stares or strange movements. My Gaydar detected no gay activities.
1st set. Nothing.
2nd set. Nothing.
3rd set. HONG GAN GU GU BIRD (henceforth known as HG3B, macam bird flu virus strain)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Juat when I thought for once I could train without gay interference....
Arrival of KOG(King Of Gays)!!!!!!
Target Name: Sebastian(Don't know Tan or Ong or Teo or Chua or Phua or KaCng la, can't be bothered, not Lim can liao)
Height: 1.7m
Weight: Between 80 to 85kg
Favourite colours: Pink and sky blue
Favourite phrases: 1) Ai Yo Eh! 2) Ni Nia Eh! 3) Wah, so light! (KNN, 200 kg still light. Xiao ah!)
Favourite activities: 1) Looking at him/herself 2) Looking at other males, big, small, fat, thin, ugly or handsome. Jia ga liao. 3) Sitting half naked in underwear in men's locker room, ogling men
So our dear Sebastian appeared at approximately 1025am at the dumbbells area. No companion today. Guess all the other gays are on MC. Too much anal action=Ka Cng Failure.
Me trying very hard not to stare but for Lim Beh's sake, he was wearing translucent tank top cut to his nipple level and tight pink tights. Ok, some joker is gonna ask me why must call tights tight or how can tights not be tight.
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The Story Of How Tights Can Possibly Not Be Tight
Once upon a time, Mr A invented an extended version of underwear that he called tights. Underwear was first invented to keep a man's equipment in place so they won't swing left and right during movement, leading to abrasions and testicular blood vessels rupture.
One day, Mr A discovered that the conventional underwear couldn't fit his equipment so he decided to make his own extended version. Being the genius that he was, he named them tights cos thay made his 15 inch dick and tennis balls feel, what else, tight. Why got 's' behind "tight" to become "tights"? KNN!!!! Please go ask the guy who invented "shorts" and "bermudas". I'm not the genius.
Anyway, enough about the tights. Years later, in a southern province of China, a middle aged housewife was getting sick of washing the clothes of all the 50 men in the family piece by piece on the washing board by the river. (Don't ask why got 50 men, read story don't think too much) So she dumped all the clothes into a shallow pool of water amongst the river rocks nearby and intelligently started to use a branch to turn all the clothes in the pool. Miraculously, she realized the dirt and mud from the clothes were being removed by her twist and turn motion. (Don't ask what brand of washing powder she used. Last time no wasing powder, only got soya sauce and salt so go figure!)
Eventually, the Americans came, saw her innovative idea, went back and invented what we now know as the washing machine.
So how can tights not be tight? Simple. Wash your tights in the washing machine long enough and you get untight tights.
So in conclusion, some joker invented tights to keep his dick and balls snug and tight. Another joker invented the wasing machine that made the first joker's tights not tight anymore.
Moral of the story: Wash clothes by hand!
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Anyway back to Sebastian. He was doing lateral raises in front of the mirror while I was doing leg presses about 8 metres away from him, separated only be 2 rows of weights. Sweat was dripping from me non stop, more out of fear than strain. Please don't come near me. We were the only 2 people there. Everyone else seemed to have disappeared once KOG walked in.
Tough luck. Our dear Sebastian started his grunting routine again. KNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He sounded like a wild boar mating, wrong, actually he sounded like a male wild boar mating with another male wild boar. (Don't ask me how I know what that sounds like. LIm Beh got watch Discovery Channel and National Geographic one leh!)
Cannot take it liao. I had to leave. I stepped away from the machine, picked up my towel and was about to head downstairs when HIS HAND TOUCHED MY ARM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! QUICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!POUR DETTOL ON ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DON'T WANT TO DIE OF AIDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sebastian: "Hi. My name Sebas. Wanna go for coffee later?"
Me: (KNN! Sebastian say Sebastian la. What Sea Bass? Wanna steam or deep fried?) Sorry no thanks. I have to go work. (Gan jeong cannot even speak proper English)
Sebastian: Fast one la. What your name? Gimme your contact la.
Me: (Fast one=Quickie! NBB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For one minute in the last 10plus hours I was actually glad I lost my phone.) I lost my phone. Bye.
And Lim Beh walked as fast as I could, down the stairs, into the shower, showered in 1 minute and out of the gym.
My life is so traumatizing.
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Nothing much happened at work la. At least not yet. Tonight got function so I shall see if more adventures await me.
8 more long torturous days to go.
I miss you so much Bebe.
Bebe in Jit-Pun (Day 3) - Delayed Post
Why delayed post?
LIM BEH LOST MY PHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Summary of Events on 100506:
1700h - Last SMS to Bebe
1720h - Discovered phone not in pocket
1721h to 1745h - Called the number with my other phone a total of 26 times before on the other end, the phone was turned off
1746h to today - NO MOOD FOR ANYTHING LIAO...
LIM BEH LOST MY PHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Summary of Events on 100506:
1700h - Last SMS to Bebe
1720h - Discovered phone not in pocket
1721h to 1745h - Called the number with my other phone a total of 26 times before on the other end, the phone was turned off
1746h to today - NO MOOD FOR ANYTHING LIAO...
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Bebe in Jit-Pun (Day 2)
Came home really late last night so too tired to post.
Didn't receive any calls or sms from Bebe the entire day. Worried. Hope she's alright.
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Yesterday went by without any significant events minus the hour plus at the gym.
Did shoulders and chest yesterday. Can feel the muscles growing day by day. Hopefully will have something nice to show Bebe when she's back.
While doing bench press, spotted one of the ex female national bodybuilders doing training. Wah biangzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She's got more definition than any of the guys around and her 8, yes 8, pack is bloody scary. Macam use knife to carve out the lines. And she does leg presses with 150kg weights. I'm shamed...
But then she's become my new motivation and inspiration. She's 52, has 3 kids but she's still training and keeping in excellent shape all these years. That leaves me, fat and slobby, with no excuse not to achieve my desired look and muscle growth.
The lady was not the highlight of the gym session yesterday. Gay alert again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
In the locker room, 2 BIG gays were sitting right at the back, one with his hand on the other's thigh, chatting. This was what I could make out from 2 rows of lockers away:
Gay 1 : Honey, later wanna go where?
Gay 2 : Don't know la. Very tired feel like sleeping.
Gay 1 : Cannot la. People purposely don't work today and you actually wanna sleep? Not fair.
Me: "People? Where got people?" (Thinking to myself)
Gay 2: You wanna go manipedi?
Gay 1 : Ya!!!!!!!!!! Then we fast fast go bathe then go la. Very long never do my nails liao. See got chipped liao.
Gay 2 : Do our nails then later we can....
Gay 1: Xiao ah!!!!!!!!! Later people hear, don't talk rubbish here.
Gay 2 : Ok ok, shower la.
By now, I was already running to the showers, clenching my butt together tight in case I got raped. A quick shower later, I was running to the locker again cos those 2 gay boys were in the shower stalls opposite mine, discussing what they wanted to do to each other. Bloody assholes, whole day no appetite to eat after that.
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This morning I went to the gym again. Still didn't get any calls or sms from Bebe. Really hope she's just too busy and is alright. I admit it, I do get overly worried about her. But it's cos I love her too much mah.
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I counted my shoes this morning. This is the breakdown.
1) SAF combat boots : 2
2) Obermain ankle shoes : 2 ( 1 black 1 brown)
3) Beetlebug leather shoes : 1
4) Crocs sandals : 1
5) Adidas Racer : 2 ( 1 red, 1 gold)
6) Adidas all weather slip on : 1
7) Adidas Mi-adidas customized running shoes : 1
8) Adidas/Goodyear shoes : 1
9) Asics red running shoes : 1
10) NIke Shox III cross-trainer : 1 (gift from my beautiful woman)
In summary...
Number of slippers/sandals : 1 (Crocs)
Number of zo-gang shoes: 2 (Obermain and Beetlebug)
Number of zo-bing shoes: 2 (SAF, what else)
Number of chut-mng shoes : 3 (Adidas/Goodyear, Adidas All Weather and Obermain Brown)
Number of track shoes: 5
TOTAL NUMBER OF FOOTWEAR : 13
That day, Bebe was just asking me why I need so many different pairs of shoes. Here's why:
1 pair of slippers/sandals - Self explanatory, informal outings, market, weekend slacking etc
2 pairs of zo-gang shoes - For rotation purposes, in case one pair gets dirty
2 pairs of zo-bing shoes - One for in camp, one for field training. Go outfield must wear seasoned pair, if not got blisters)
3 pairs of chut-mng shoes - Obermain for more formal wear, the other 2 adidas chin chye cheng
5 pairs of track shoes -
Asics Red - designed for track running. I bought it to use as chut-mng shoes cos which bo liao person will purposely go to stadium to run on track. Plus it's red. Wahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!
Adidas Racer (2) - For short distance running. Extremely light. Suitable when I need to run less than 5 km or on days when I'm training upper body at the gym. Why 2 pairs? Cos I got Bebe a similar pair in red so can act rou ma when we go out, serves as part time chut-mng shoes.
Adidas Mi-adidas customized runnng shoes - Customized to the contours and arches of my feet individually. With the past injuries that I have sustained, having a customized pair of running shoes gives me better cushioning and lower injury risks. Also for runs longer than 5km.
Nike Shox III - Dilemma initially about whether to buy it cos of current financial crisis. But my woman, being the sweetest baby ever, bought it for me. Extra pockets of air and cushioning in the Nike Shox system gives me additional protection and acts as a buffer for my knees when I train my lower body, especially legs. Especially useful when doing leg presses and squats with barbells. Yesterday it was "deflowered" at CF(Raffles). Served its purpose extremely well. Thank you so much Bebe. :)
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So, women got the license to get as many pairs of shoes as they want. All they have to say is that they need different pairs of shoes to match their hundreds even thousands of outfits. Us men, or should I just speak for myself, me man if wanna buy one more pair of shoe, must think of the scientific and logical explanation of why I need one more.
It's a strange world. Equality of sexes? Maybe on some issues la. But with shoes and clothes and even toiletries (creams, toners etc), it'll never be balanced la(Gays not included).
That's life. :)
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Okey dokey. Time to get back to work. Will post again as soon as I can. Hopefully by the next post I will have heard from Bebe.
I miss you so much. Love sucks but without Bebe's love my life will suck even more.
Live well.
Didn't receive any calls or sms from Bebe the entire day. Worried. Hope she's alright.
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Yesterday went by without any significant events minus the hour plus at the gym.
Did shoulders and chest yesterday. Can feel the muscles growing day by day. Hopefully will have something nice to show Bebe when she's back.
While doing bench press, spotted one of the ex female national bodybuilders doing training. Wah biangzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She's got more definition than any of the guys around and her 8, yes 8, pack is bloody scary. Macam use knife to carve out the lines. And she does leg presses with 150kg weights. I'm shamed...
But then she's become my new motivation and inspiration. She's 52, has 3 kids but she's still training and keeping in excellent shape all these years. That leaves me, fat and slobby, with no excuse not to achieve my desired look and muscle growth.
The lady was not the highlight of the gym session yesterday. Gay alert again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
In the locker room, 2 BIG gays were sitting right at the back, one with his hand on the other's thigh, chatting. This was what I could make out from 2 rows of lockers away:
Gay 1 : Honey, later wanna go where?
Gay 2 : Don't know la. Very tired feel like sleeping.
Gay 1 : Cannot la. People purposely don't work today and you actually wanna sleep? Not fair.
Me: "People? Where got people?" (Thinking to myself)
Gay 2: You wanna go manipedi?
Gay 1 : Ya!!!!!!!!!! Then we fast fast go bathe then go la. Very long never do my nails liao. See got chipped liao.
Gay 2 : Do our nails then later we can....
Gay 1: Xiao ah!!!!!!!!! Later people hear, don't talk rubbish here.
Gay 2 : Ok ok, shower la.
By now, I was already running to the showers, clenching my butt together tight in case I got raped. A quick shower later, I was running to the locker again cos those 2 gay boys were in the shower stalls opposite mine, discussing what they wanted to do to each other. Bloody assholes, whole day no appetite to eat after that.
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This morning I went to the gym again. Still didn't get any calls or sms from Bebe. Really hope she's just too busy and is alright. I admit it, I do get overly worried about her. But it's cos I love her too much mah.
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I counted my shoes this morning. This is the breakdown.
1) SAF combat boots : 2
2) Obermain ankle shoes : 2 ( 1 black 1 brown)
3) Beetlebug leather shoes : 1
4) Crocs sandals : 1
5) Adidas Racer : 2 ( 1 red, 1 gold)
6) Adidas all weather slip on : 1
7) Adidas Mi-adidas customized running shoes : 1
8) Adidas/Goodyear shoes : 1
9) Asics red running shoes : 1
10) NIke Shox III cross-trainer : 1 (gift from my beautiful woman)
In summary...
Number of slippers/sandals : 1 (Crocs)
Number of zo-gang shoes: 2 (Obermain and Beetlebug)
Number of zo-bing shoes: 2 (SAF, what else)
Number of chut-mng shoes : 3 (Adidas/Goodyear, Adidas All Weather and Obermain Brown)
Number of track shoes: 5
TOTAL NUMBER OF FOOTWEAR : 13
That day, Bebe was just asking me why I need so many different pairs of shoes. Here's why:
1 pair of slippers/sandals - Self explanatory, informal outings, market, weekend slacking etc
2 pairs of zo-gang shoes - For rotation purposes, in case one pair gets dirty
2 pairs of zo-bing shoes - One for in camp, one for field training. Go outfield must wear seasoned pair, if not got blisters)
3 pairs of chut-mng shoes - Obermain for more formal wear, the other 2 adidas chin chye cheng
5 pairs of track shoes -
Asics Red - designed for track running. I bought it to use as chut-mng shoes cos which bo liao person will purposely go to stadium to run on track. Plus it's red. Wahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!
Adidas Racer (2) - For short distance running. Extremely light. Suitable when I need to run less than 5 km or on days when I'm training upper body at the gym. Why 2 pairs? Cos I got Bebe a similar pair in red so can act rou ma when we go out, serves as part time chut-mng shoes.
Adidas Mi-adidas customized runnng shoes - Customized to the contours and arches of my feet individually. With the past injuries that I have sustained, having a customized pair of running shoes gives me better cushioning and lower injury risks. Also for runs longer than 5km.
Nike Shox III - Dilemma initially about whether to buy it cos of current financial crisis. But my woman, being the sweetest baby ever, bought it for me. Extra pockets of air and cushioning in the Nike Shox system gives me additional protection and acts as a buffer for my knees when I train my lower body, especially legs. Especially useful when doing leg presses and squats with barbells. Yesterday it was "deflowered" at CF(Raffles). Served its purpose extremely well. Thank you so much Bebe. :)
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So, women got the license to get as many pairs of shoes as they want. All they have to say is that they need different pairs of shoes to match their hundreds even thousands of outfits. Us men, or should I just speak for myself, me man if wanna buy one more pair of shoe, must think of the scientific and logical explanation of why I need one more.
It's a strange world. Equality of sexes? Maybe on some issues la. But with shoes and clothes and even toiletries (creams, toners etc), it'll never be balanced la(Gays not included).
That's life. :)
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Okey dokey. Time to get back to work. Will post again as soon as I can. Hopefully by the next post I will have heard from Bebe.
I miss you so much. Love sucks but without Bebe's love my life will suck even more.
Live well.
Monday, May 08, 2006
Bebe in Jit-Pun (Day 1) aka "Once Again"
Once again, I was at the airport last night.
Once again, me and Bebe were separated by glass panels guarded by some police guy who looked more comfortable working as BK floor manager.
Once again, me and Bebe are separated by kms of land and gallons of seawater.
Once again, I had to tell myself not to cry when Bebe went in towards her boarding gate, F39.
Once again, it was another night of little sleep as I waited for Bebe's call to tell me she's arrived safely.
Once again, the same feeling of relief and happiness at hearing my beautiful woman's voice at 0915h(Sin).
Once again, the start of another stretch of lonely days without Bebe.
Once again, another hour of training at CF Raffles.
Once again, I realize how much Bebe means to me and how much I love her.
I Miss You.
Once again, me and Bebe were separated by glass panels guarded by some police guy who looked more comfortable working as BK floor manager.
Once again, me and Bebe are separated by kms of land and gallons of seawater.
Once again, I had to tell myself not to cry when Bebe went in towards her boarding gate, F39.
Once again, it was another night of little sleep as I waited for Bebe's call to tell me she's arrived safely.
Once again, the same feeling of relief and happiness at hearing my beautiful woman's voice at 0915h(Sin).
Once again, the start of another stretch of lonely days without Bebe.
Once again, another hour of training at CF Raffles.
Once again, I realize how much Bebe means to me and how much I love her.
I Miss You.
Friday, April 07, 2006
Day 6
Finally back from work. Bloody tired. Less than 4 hours to sleep before I gotta wake up and go to gym for my PT.
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Looking on the bright side, in less than 24 hours my loneliness will finally end when Bebe arrives from Tokxx.
Bebe I miss you so much. I won't write anymore liao. Will leave everything to tell you later face to face. I love you. Muackkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!
Good night. Sweet dreams.
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Looking on the bright side, in less than 24 hours my loneliness will finally end when Bebe arrives from Tokxx.
Bebe I miss you so much. I won't write anymore liao. Will leave everything to tell you later face to face. I love you. Muackkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!
Good night. Sweet dreams.
Thursday, April 06, 2006
Day 5.75
Gotta start work in an hour's time. Confirm finish late so thought might as well do my entry now in case I 'm too tired by the time I get back(and burn about 10 calories doing it).
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Got a call from Bebe at 1020am. It feels so amazing to hear her voice. Magical. There're so many things I wanna do with you when you're back...
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On the train to work, "accidentally" overheard the conversation of 3 young girls standing next to me. They looked about 18-20 but I could be wrong with all the hormone injections being used these days...
Let's call them *Quite Chio Girl(QCG), **Mor Peng Girl(MPG) and ***Dua Bui Girl(DBG).
(Names have been changed to protect their identity. Actual conversation has been summarized, Lim Beh bo si gan liao)
MPG: Die lah, my outbreak getting worse.
DBG: You poor thing. Don't know why but I can never seem to get pimples leh. Damn sian...
Me(in my head): "God is fair. He took the oil that was supposed to be in your pimples over the years, multiplied them by infinity, then deposited them all over your body for a well balanced Dua Bui look for all seasons."
QCG: I also always got outbreak but I got secret formula, works everytime.
MPG&DBG: What?????????????????????????
QCG: Everytime I let my darling come on my face. Then I rub all over my outbreak areas. 2,3 days later all gone.
Me: "WAHLANEHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! Cannot see me and the other passengers on the train is it? This kind of thing say so loud...."
MPG: How he come on your face? Come what? From where he come?
Me: "MPG is obviously one of the last 100 pre-21 girls who haven't had sexual experience. Make that 101, I forgot to count DBG."
QCG: Siao la. On a good day, enough to cover my neck also. Sometimes he also come on my tits then I do massage. See so firm.
Me: "Too much information. 4 more stops to go. Faster leh."
DBG: Aiyo don't teach her all the bad things lah. But frankly speaking I think I should try the breast thing also. I always let my boyfriend come on my butt, never anywhere else. He says he loves how perky it is after we do it. He will spread it over my whole butt.
Me: "Ya right, 1) Your boyfriend surname Zhu, name Bajie. Or he's the dog you keep at home that humps you when he's horny. 2) Your definition of perky is like the piece of pork I saw at Cold Storage that day. 3) How to spread over your entire butt when your butt is the size of China? Unless he has testicles the size of North and South America combined."
QCG: Sick leh you say this kind of thing in public. I only let mine come inside my butt, never on my butt. Damn shiok.
Me: "KNNB, as if you not sick!"
Epilogue: By the time I got off the train, MPG's pimple problem still wasn't solved.
*My Ah Be much much much more chio
**Mor Peng=Moon crater face=No money to buy Oxy is it?
***Enough said. Wear mini tight skirt some more. Wah Biangzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!
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Uneventful day at the office. Another 4 people asked about how I could afford a Rolex with my pay. Wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!
That'll teach you to Gou Yan Kan Ren Di(Dog Eye See Man Low)...
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During tea break, I went jalaning alone in TBP. It feels so weird without Bebe holding my arm and leaning close to me. Decided to walk back to the office after 15 mins cos the loneliness was getting unbearable. So many people around me, yet I felt so empty.
Bebe I Miss You.
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Ok time to go. If I can't blog tonight, it's cos I'm too tired. Sorry in advance.
She's coming back tomorrow night. WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
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Got a call from Bebe at 1020am. It feels so amazing to hear her voice. Magical. There're so many things I wanna do with you when you're back...
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On the train to work, "accidentally" overheard the conversation of 3 young girls standing next to me. They looked about 18-20 but I could be wrong with all the hormone injections being used these days...
Let's call them *Quite Chio Girl(QCG), **Mor Peng Girl(MPG) and ***Dua Bui Girl(DBG).
(Names have been changed to protect their identity. Actual conversation has been summarized, Lim Beh bo si gan liao)
MPG: Die lah, my outbreak getting worse.
DBG: You poor thing. Don't know why but I can never seem to get pimples leh. Damn sian...
Me(in my head): "God is fair. He took the oil that was supposed to be in your pimples over the years, multiplied them by infinity, then deposited them all over your body for a well balanced Dua Bui look for all seasons."
QCG: I also always got outbreak but I got secret formula, works everytime.
MPG&DBG: What?????????????????????????
QCG: Everytime I let my darling come on my face. Then I rub all over my outbreak areas. 2,3 days later all gone.
Me: "WAHLANEHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! Cannot see me and the other passengers on the train is it? This kind of thing say so loud...."
MPG: How he come on your face? Come what? From where he come?
Me: "MPG is obviously one of the last 100 pre-21 girls who haven't had sexual experience. Make that 101, I forgot to count DBG."
QCG: Siao la. On a good day, enough to cover my neck also. Sometimes he also come on my tits then I do massage. See so firm.
Me: "Too much information. 4 more stops to go. Faster leh."
DBG: Aiyo don't teach her all the bad things lah. But frankly speaking I think I should try the breast thing also. I always let my boyfriend come on my butt, never anywhere else. He says he loves how perky it is after we do it. He will spread it over my whole butt.
Me: "Ya right, 1) Your boyfriend surname Zhu, name Bajie. Or he's the dog you keep at home that humps you when he's horny. 2) Your definition of perky is like the piece of pork I saw at Cold Storage that day. 3) How to spread over your entire butt when your butt is the size of China? Unless he has testicles the size of North and South America combined."
QCG: Sick leh you say this kind of thing in public. I only let mine come inside my butt, never on my butt. Damn shiok.
Me: "KNNB, as if you not sick!"
Epilogue: By the time I got off the train, MPG's pimple problem still wasn't solved.
*My Ah Be much much much more chio
**Mor Peng=Moon crater face=No money to buy Oxy is it?
***Enough said. Wear mini tight skirt some more. Wah Biangzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!
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Uneventful day at the office. Another 4 people asked about how I could afford a Rolex with my pay. Wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!
That'll teach you to Gou Yan Kan Ren Di(Dog Eye See Man Low)...
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During tea break, I went jalaning alone in TBP. It feels so weird without Bebe holding my arm and leaning close to me. Decided to walk back to the office after 15 mins cos the loneliness was getting unbearable. So many people around me, yet I felt so empty.
Bebe I Miss You.
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Ok time to go. If I can't blog tonight, it's cos I'm too tired. Sorry in advance.
She's coming back tomorrow night. WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
Day 5
Day 5......
2 more days to my beloved Bebe's return.....
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Today is 4D day.
Wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!
Wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!
Wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!
Wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!
Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
Not Me Again.......................................................................................................................................... :(
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Reached the gym at 730am today. No BMM in sight. Heng ah....
Whacked the treadmill for about an hour. No BMM in sight. See-Bay Heng ah....
Finished off with 5 sets of legs ex. Still no BMM in sight. Only a scrawny little fellow a little less than 1.6m and probably weighs about 45kg(looks a little like Gollum from LOTR), trying to do leg press with 150lbs. Poor weights. Gotta wait so long to move 0.0000003cm. Must be tiring for them... The weights, not his legs.
No BMM. Confirmed. Heng Heng....
Had a quick refreshing cold shower. Changed. Walked to the lift. No BMM. Ho Say Liao.... Tempted to pop upstairs to see how Gollum was doing but decided not to waste any more time in case BMMs appeared.
Uneventful elevator ride down. Door opened. Ran into 2 brick walls...................................................
.........BBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB.....................................................................................
.........MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.....................................................................................
.........MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.....................................................................................
.........x2x2x2x2x2x2x2x2x2x2x2x2x2x2x2x2x2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Time seem to slow down so much that squeezing past them seemed like a scene from The Matrix. Blue pill or red pill? KNN!!!!! Just give Lim Beh rat poison lah. No pill in the world can erase the trauma from seeing the sadistic looks on the 2 BMMs upon seeing me.
Wah Lan Eh!!!!!!
Lang Suay Qi Jiao Bian Gong Guay(loosely translated as When you're down on your luck, even the songbird that you're keeping turns out to be a chicken in the end)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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W0rk work work...
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Time flies(actually it doesn't lah, as long as Bebe is not around, time seems to pass so slow. But tell story so must use popular phrases from other writers).
Around 10 plus, received a few smses from Bebe.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
Wake up liao!!!!!!!!
All I can say is whatever was in those smses, I will definitely make them come true once Bebe's back. I shall not elaborate. You know I know can liao...
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2 more days to go and I can go wait at Chaxxx Airport for my beautiful Bebe to arrive. God, the things I'm dying to do to her........... Absence does make the heart grow fonder but even without absence, my heart grows fonder of Bebe wth each passing day.
My Bebe is asleep liao. Cannot sms her cos expensive. Sigh...
I miss you really bad. I'll see you soon.
For now, me shall see you in my dreams. Hope you'll still be as "happening" as the dream last night(don't ask now, I'll tell you when you're back). I miss you in every way possible.
Hope Gollum got out of the gym with his legs intact. Hope he didn't fall prey to the BMMs. Imagine getting stuck in the leg press machine with 2 humongous BMMs ogling you. Wah Biang!!!!!!!!!! Poor thing...
Good night. Time to go play 5-10 with my Ah Be in my dreams liao. Today I'll let her win. Think she's lost enough last night. Dun think she'll have strength to stand in the dream tonight.
Out.
2 more days to my beloved Bebe's return.....
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Today is 4D day.
Wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!
Wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!
Wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!
Wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!
Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
Not Me Again.......................................................................................................................................... :(
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Reached the gym at 730am today. No BMM in sight. Heng ah....
Whacked the treadmill for about an hour. No BMM in sight. See-Bay Heng ah....
Finished off with 5 sets of legs ex. Still no BMM in sight. Only a scrawny little fellow a little less than 1.6m and probably weighs about 45kg(looks a little like Gollum from LOTR), trying to do leg press with 150lbs. Poor weights. Gotta wait so long to move 0.0000003cm. Must be tiring for them... The weights, not his legs.
No BMM. Confirmed. Heng Heng....
Had a quick refreshing cold shower. Changed. Walked to the lift. No BMM. Ho Say Liao.... Tempted to pop upstairs to see how Gollum was doing but decided not to waste any more time in case BMMs appeared.
Uneventful elevator ride down. Door opened. Ran into 2 brick walls...................................................
.........BBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB.....................................................................................
.........MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.....................................................................................
.........MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.....................................................................................
.........x2x2x2x2x2x2x2x2x2x2x2x2x2x2x2x2x2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Time seem to slow down so much that squeezing past them seemed like a scene from The Matrix. Blue pill or red pill? KNN!!!!! Just give Lim Beh rat poison lah. No pill in the world can erase the trauma from seeing the sadistic looks on the 2 BMMs upon seeing me.
Wah Lan Eh!!!!!!
Lang Suay Qi Jiao Bian Gong Guay(loosely translated as When you're down on your luck, even the songbird that you're keeping turns out to be a chicken in the end)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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W0rk work work...
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Time flies(actually it doesn't lah, as long as Bebe is not around, time seems to pass so slow. But tell story so must use popular phrases from other writers).
Around 10 plus, received a few smses from Bebe.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
Wake up liao!!!!!!!!
All I can say is whatever was in those smses, I will definitely make them come true once Bebe's back. I shall not elaborate. You know I know can liao...
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2 more days to go and I can go wait at Chaxxx Airport for my beautiful Bebe to arrive. God, the things I'm dying to do to her........... Absence does make the heart grow fonder but even without absence, my heart grows fonder of Bebe wth each passing day.
My Bebe is asleep liao. Cannot sms her cos expensive. Sigh...
I miss you really bad. I'll see you soon.
For now, me shall see you in my dreams. Hope you'll still be as "happening" as the dream last night(don't ask now, I'll tell you when you're back). I miss you in every way possible.
Hope Gollum got out of the gym with his legs intact. Hope he didn't fall prey to the BMMs. Imagine getting stuck in the leg press machine with 2 humongous BMMs ogling you. Wah Biang!!!!!!!!!! Poor thing...
Good night. Time to go play 5-10 with my Ah Be in my dreams liao. Today I'll let her win. Think she's lost enough last night. Dun think she'll have strength to stand in the dream tonight.
Out.
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Day 4
Day 4 liaozzzzzzz.
Supposed to come back earlier and msn with Bebe. But lo and behold, work ended late. :( Just finished my nice cold shower, a little more awake. Got an sms from Bebe around 9 plus saying she's homesick. At that point, an unbelievable feeling of sadness overcame me. My poor Bebe, all alone in Tokxx, having to bear with KenChaoRo-San day in day out. Worst of all, I can't do anything to make her feel better. Sorry Bebe. I'll make it up to you when you're home k.
But looking on the bright side, Bebe also called this afternoon while I was "nua-ing" at a cafe. She's coming back on FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!(Cue fireworks, champagne and lion dance).
3 more days... 24 hours less of agony and waiting.... WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Can;t wait!!!! Bebe, sleep tight for now. Know that this fat gorilla is waiting for you to come back to show you how much he loves you. Muack Muack Muack!!!!!!!!!!
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Few more hours and it's time for my Wednesday gym session. I should be happy and eager shouldn't I? But no, this time I'm not. Why? League of Extraordinary BMM(LXB)!!!!!!! No, not the movie starring Sean Connery and God knows who. It's the Brotherhood of the Male Dick Lovers....
Things I should do to protect myself from LXB:
1) Wear 3 briefs, a boxer and a pair of tights under my shorts (but I'll either die of a. excessive bleeding abrasions b. Penal suffocation c. Embarrassment)
2) Attempt to hide a baseball bat under my clothes and HOOT them back to Gayland if they try anything (but I'll probably be escorted out by security before I'm even approached)
3) Scream upon contact (but that'll make me one of them, sigh...)
4) Avoid suspicious BMM looking homosapiens (but remember The Sixth Sense, "I see gay people, they're everywhere...")
5) Break ther arms and legs of whichever Mudderfarker who comes near (but then police case again)
6) Not go to the gym (cannot la, must persevere to get the ideal bod so Bebe can drool....)
SO ladies and gentlemen, I am going to the gym. Wish me luck. If the worst should happen to me, don't cry for me. Instead, rejoice for me cos my suffering will be over.
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ToTo
So as the majority of Singaxxxx punters will know by now, Monday's Toto's Grand Prize of 1.5 million went to the holder of a ticket bought at Chai Chee.
Wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!
Wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!
Wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!
WaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaBiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang!!!
NOT ME!!!
So I can't fly to Tokxx to surprise Bebe in the container she calls her hotel room. I also can't go get the 1 carat ring to propose to her. Neither can I get her the Gucci bag she wants.
Sigh......Kor Mia Lang ah...........................................................................................................................
Never mind, still got one more chance this Thursday......
If strike, I will:
1) Buy a one carat diamond ring of the best possible grade from the jewellery shop that has the best service
2) Order 999 blue roses, if possible, to go with the ring
3) Go book a red 1.6L Mazda 3
4) Write out a cheque of S$100K for Bebe to put deposit on whichever condominium unit she fancies
5) Pray hard that Bebe will accept my proposal, after our heart to heart talk of each other's expectations and compromises
6) Use another 3 months to decide what to do with the money, wedding expenses included
Ok, put it at that for the moment.
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Almost 2 liao, time to sleep. I miss you Bebe. Really do. It's such a terrible feeling. Good night.
Supposed to come back earlier and msn with Bebe. But lo and behold, work ended late. :( Just finished my nice cold shower, a little more awake. Got an sms from Bebe around 9 plus saying she's homesick. At that point, an unbelievable feeling of sadness overcame me. My poor Bebe, all alone in Tokxx, having to bear with KenChaoRo-San day in day out. Worst of all, I can't do anything to make her feel better. Sorry Bebe. I'll make it up to you when you're home k.
But looking on the bright side, Bebe also called this afternoon while I was "nua-ing" at a cafe. She's coming back on FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!(Cue fireworks, champagne and lion dance).
3 more days... 24 hours less of agony and waiting.... WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Can;t wait!!!! Bebe, sleep tight for now. Know that this fat gorilla is waiting for you to come back to show you how much he loves you. Muack Muack Muack!!!!!!!!!!
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Few more hours and it's time for my Wednesday gym session. I should be happy and eager shouldn't I? But no, this time I'm not. Why? League of Extraordinary BMM(LXB)!!!!!!! No, not the movie starring Sean Connery and God knows who. It's the Brotherhood of the Male Dick Lovers....
Things I should do to protect myself from LXB:
1) Wear 3 briefs, a boxer and a pair of tights under my shorts (but I'll either die of a. excessive bleeding abrasions b. Penal suffocation c. Embarrassment)
2) Attempt to hide a baseball bat under my clothes and HOOT them back to Gayland if they try anything (but I'll probably be escorted out by security before I'm even approached)
3) Scream upon contact (but that'll make me one of them, sigh...)
4) Avoid suspicious BMM looking homosapiens (but remember The Sixth Sense, "I see gay people, they're everywhere...")
5) Break ther arms and legs of whichever Mudderfarker who comes near (but then police case again)
6) Not go to the gym (cannot la, must persevere to get the ideal bod so Bebe can drool....)
SO ladies and gentlemen, I am going to the gym. Wish me luck. If the worst should happen to me, don't cry for me. Instead, rejoice for me cos my suffering will be over.
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ToTo
So as the majority of Singaxxxx punters will know by now, Monday's Toto's Grand Prize of 1.5 million went to the holder of a ticket bought at Chai Chee.
Wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!
Wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!
Wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!
WaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaBiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang!!!
NOT ME!!!
So I can't fly to Tokxx to surprise Bebe in the container she calls her hotel room. I also can't go get the 1 carat ring to propose to her. Neither can I get her the Gucci bag she wants.
Sigh......Kor Mia Lang ah...........................................................................................................................
Never mind, still got one more chance this Thursday......
If strike, I will:
1) Buy a one carat diamond ring of the best possible grade from the jewellery shop that has the best service
2) Order 999 blue roses, if possible, to go with the ring
3) Go book a red 1.6L Mazda 3
4) Write out a cheque of S$100K for Bebe to put deposit on whichever condominium unit she fancies
5) Pray hard that Bebe will accept my proposal, after our heart to heart talk of each other's expectations and compromises
6) Use another 3 months to decide what to do with the money, wedding expenses included
Ok, put it at that for the moment.
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Almost 2 liao, time to sleep. I miss you Bebe. Really do. It's such a terrible feeling. Good night.
Monday, April 03, 2006
Day 3
Got an sms from Bebe this morning at 5 plus!!!!!!!!!!! Instead of "Good morning I love you", my silly little girl forgot to bring her handphone charger to Tokxx!!!! Me was supposed to get the charger from her place then pass it to Ah Jie to "super courier" to my blur queen Bebe. So me being me decided to skip gym and wait til 9am before heading to Be's place to get the charger in case her dad freaked out seeing this gorilla at 6 plus in the morning. Then at 9 plus Bebe discovered that she could get a spare phone from Mr Axxx who also happened to be in Japxx. So me, who happened to be on an extremely smelly Cxxfxxt cab travelling towards Be's place, had the perfect excuse to alight in, lo and behold, Geylang Road!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Took a short hot walk to Aljxxxxx station and took a train to work with time to spare.
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Finished work at 2 and headed to Jie's place to "cut grass". Finished by 330 and decided to pop by the gym to squeeze in a little training.
BIG MISTAKE....Attack of the Horny Gays!!!!!!!!!!!
Treadmill. There I was happily cruising from Level 1 to 15. On a roll. Then it happened...
"xxx" - spoken - in my head
Big Muscular Man Wearing Bright Yellow Tight Singlet and Superman Tights(BMM) approaches:
"Hi! (pointing to the treadmill next to mine) Is this taken?" (Follows up with devious smile)
Me: (Silence)
BMM: No reply means can use right? Ok I use liao k. (Flexes biceps and triceps before hopping on treadmill. I emphasize...Hopping)
Me: (Carry on running)
BMM: Wah, how to use huh? Wah you run very fast hor. Wah so much sweat.
Me: (I step off, emphasize 'step', the treadmill and head to the weights stations.)
Target spotted... Another BMM wearing ugly gym gear at the chest fly machine. Me decided to avoid potential hazard and move to the leg press station. After 2 sets, I looked up and both BMM1 and BMM2 were at machines next to me, looking in my direction..... Shit!!!!! (Brokeback mountain soundtrack plays in my head...)
With as little movement and sound as possible, I moved towards the staircase to get downstairs(these creatures are apparently attracted to moving males, preferable sweaty).
Without looking back, I limped with my sore legs to the lockers, ran straight into the shower and prayed hard the cold water would give me enough strength to get out of the gym in one piece.
5 mins passes, nothing.
Came out and walked to my locker. Just as I wore my bottom, THEY WERE HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Giggling like schoolgirls...... My balls decided to take a flight all the way to Alaska.... Mustering all my remaining strength, I put on all my clothes and rushed out.
The scary part is BMM1 said as I walked past: "See you Wednesday!"
Me:
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Went to prepare for work. Dxxxxxx was nice enough to volunteer to cover the rest of the night to let me leave early. He said I looked traumatized and pale. If only he knew.
Anyway, my balls came back from Alaska once I got on the train.
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Day 3 that Bebe's been away. The feeling's terrible. It just feels so empty without her around. Yes we quarrel, we fight, we cry. But most importantly, we laugh, we smile and we love each other more than we ever thought possible.
I'm still trying very hard to be a better person. Hope it happens soon. Bebe is getting really tired with our constant arguments. Me too.
She must have just finished her dinner. Wonder what she's doing now? Wonder if she misses me half as much as I miss her? Wonder if she dreams of me as much as I dream of her?
One thing's for sure, 5 more days, my happiness returns.
Good night people. It's gonna be a cold night. Dun lose your blankets.
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Finished work at 2 and headed to Jie's place to "cut grass". Finished by 330 and decided to pop by the gym to squeeze in a little training.
BIG MISTAKE....Attack of the Horny Gays!!!!!!!!!!!
Treadmill. There I was happily cruising from Level 1 to 15. On a roll. Then it happened...
"xxx" - spoken
Big Muscular Man Wearing Bright Yellow Tight Singlet and Superman Tights(BMM) approaches:
"Hi! (pointing to the treadmill next to mine) Is this taken?" (Follows up with devious smile)
Me:
BMM: No reply means can use right? Ok I use liao k. (Flexes biceps and triceps before hopping on treadmill. I emphasize...Hopping)
Me: (Carry on running)
BMM: Wah, how to use huh? Wah you run very fast hor. Wah so much sweat.
Me:
Target spotted... Another BMM wearing ugly gym gear at the chest fly machine. Me decided to avoid potential hazard and move to the leg press station. After 2 sets, I looked up and
With as little movement and sound as possible, I moved towards the staircase to get downstairs(these creatures are apparently attracted to moving males, preferable sweaty).
Without looking back, I limped with my sore legs to the lockers, ran straight into the shower and prayed hard the cold water would give me enough strength to get out of the gym in one piece.
5 mins passes, nothing.
Came out and walked to my locker. Just as I wore my bottom, THEY WERE HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Giggling like schoolgirls...... My balls decided to take a flight all the way to Alaska.... Mustering all my remaining strength, I put on all my clothes and rushed out.
The scary part is BMM1 said as I walked past: "See you Wednesday!"
Me:
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Went to prepare for work. Dxxxxxx was nice enough to volunteer to cover the rest of the night to let me leave early. He said I looked traumatized and pale. If only he knew.
Anyway, my balls came back from Alaska once I got on the train.
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Day 3 that Bebe's been away. The feeling's terrible. It just feels so empty without her around. Yes we quarrel, we fight, we cry. But most importantly, we laugh, we smile and we love each other more than we ever thought possible.
I'm still trying very hard to be a better person. Hope it happens soon. Bebe is getting really tired with our constant arguments. Me too.
She must have just finished her dinner. Wonder what she's doing now? Wonder if she misses me half as much as I miss her? Wonder if she dreams of me as much as I dream of her?
One thing's for sure, 5 more days, my happiness returns.
Good night people. It's gonna be a cold night. Dun lose your blankets.
Day 2(Repost)
This is a repost from my LOST blog...
It's officially 25 hours since Bebe left Sxxxxpore for Tokxx. Still can't believe I let my tears drop in front of those few kids who were also sending someone off at T1 last night.An excerpt from what I overheard as I walked away from them:Girl 1: Wah you see that guy so sad, crying* some more.Girl 2: Ya lor, people so romantic, not like you all, all "bo sim".Boy 1: People very in love mah**Boy 2: You want I also can cry for you.* For their information, tearing is not equivalent to crying. The former doesn't involve sounds.** Kids nowadays, I wonder if they still teach English in school.Boy 2 obviously have never really cried in his life before, maybe minus the time his mum whipped him so hard with 10 canes for stealing the neighbour's grandma knickers. It's not on call or as simple as it seems my young friend.This is not Bebe's 1st trip overseas on her own but it really came too soon and too sudden. We'd just come back from Bangkok on Thursday and before I knew it, it was Saturday and time to fly.Bangkxx...It was supposed to be a trip for us and 2 other friends to resolve some issues and put closure to a niggling event. After that have a good well deserved break. But I screwed up. I screwed up big time.If time could be reversed, I'd be less nasty, less fierce and less sensitive. Bebe deserves so much more than what I can offer. In Bangkxx I nearly gave up and I nearly made Bebe give up on me. I'm glad we both decided to give it another go.How tough is it to find a girl whom I can love and love me back? Not tough based on my past track records. In fact it's so much easier to find a girl who'll love me more than I love her. Guess after that big episode in '92, and various smaller episodes before Bebe came along, I just couldn't bring myself to love all out anymore.In Bebe, I found THE ONE. No matter how much I tried to make myself not love her, I just couldn't. She's a wonderful woman, minus the fiery temper(which I'm equally gulty of) and perhaps her occasional negativity, she's all that I can ever wish for.In Bangkxx, I learnt more things about the 2 of us which made me realize even more how much I love her. And the only people who can both make this work or fail is us. I wanna be a better man. Not just for her, but for everyone around me.I used to think I was one of the best around, but life with Bebe made me realize otherwise. I'm human after all. I have my flaws, like everyone else. It hit me hard to realize that I couldn't be the best anymore. But my priority right now, to be the best I can possibly be for Bebe.I wanna be better tempered. I wanna be more understanding. I wanna be so much more. I wanna be able to start this improvement ball rolling by the time Bebe's back on Saturday.I miss you Bebe. Really do.I'll go to bed now. Got a hectic morning at the gym tomorrow followed by hour after hour of hectic work.
It's officially 25 hours since Bebe left Sxxxxpore for Tokxx. Still can't believe I let my tears drop in front of those few kids who were also sending someone off at T1 last night.An excerpt from what I overheard as I walked away from them:Girl 1: Wah you see that guy so sad, crying* some more.Girl 2: Ya lor, people so romantic, not like you all, all "bo sim".Boy 1: People very in love mah**Boy 2: You want I also can cry for you.* For their information, tearing is not equivalent to crying. The former doesn't involve sounds.** Kids nowadays, I wonder if they still teach English in school.Boy 2 obviously have never really cried in his life before, maybe minus the time his mum whipped him so hard with 10 canes for stealing the neighbour's grandma knickers. It's not on call or as simple as it seems my young friend.This is not Bebe's 1st trip overseas on her own but it really came too soon and too sudden. We'd just come back from Bangkok on Thursday and before I knew it, it was Saturday and time to fly.Bangkxx...It was supposed to be a trip for us and 2 other friends to resolve some issues and put closure to a niggling event. After that have a good well deserved break. But I screwed up. I screwed up big time.If time could be reversed, I'd be less nasty, less fierce and less sensitive. Bebe deserves so much more than what I can offer. In Bangkxx I nearly gave up and I nearly made Bebe give up on me. I'm glad we both decided to give it another go.How tough is it to find a girl whom I can love and love me back? Not tough based on my past track records. In fact it's so much easier to find a girl who'll love me more than I love her. Guess after that big episode in '92, and various smaller episodes before Bebe came along, I just couldn't bring myself to love all out anymore.In Bebe, I found THE ONE. No matter how much I tried to make myself not love her, I just couldn't. She's a wonderful woman, minus the fiery temper(which I'm equally gulty of) and perhaps her occasional negativity, she's all that I can ever wish for.In Bangkxx, I learnt more things about the 2 of us which made me realize even more how much I love her. And the only people who can both make this work or fail is us. I wanna be a better man. Not just for her, but for everyone around me.I used to think I was one of the best around, but life with Bebe made me realize otherwise. I'm human after all. I have my flaws, like everyone else. It hit me hard to realize that I couldn't be the best anymore. But my priority right now, to be the best I can possibly be for Bebe.I wanna be better tempered. I wanna be more understanding. I wanna be so much more. I wanna be able to start this improvement ball rolling by the time Bebe's back on Saturday.I miss you Bebe. Really do.I'll go to bed now. Got a hectic morning at the gym tomorrow followed by hour after hour of hectic work.
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